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I have officially moved to using another blog.

Thank You Sam Yong!!! (:

Love is a powerful emotion because it forced Gatsby to push himself out of the comfort zone to chase down the American dream so that he could be compatible with Daisy. However, Gatsby loved too much until it became an obsession which led to his death.

On the other hand, Daisy and Tom didn't love anyone other than themselves.

Finally finish reading the book after so long. I love how the author writes- his descriptions are so livid and he made the characters sprung to life. I could totally imagine the scene playing through my mind like a movie when I was reading the book. I should watch the movie soon.

On the side note, the heirs is ending soon. Good luck to Cha Eu Sang and Kim Tan

Another fun day! (: 

Went out with Samantha, Felecia and Simin to celebrate Simin's birthday. It is super super belated, but it is always better than none. Firstly, I was late for fifteen minutes. I was supposed to meet them at 11am, however, I only reached CCK at 11.15am. ): It was so awkward to let the birthday girl wait for me. 

After I reached, we spent relatively short time deciding what to eat, as compared to how long we usually spent (ie > 30 minutes. ) Simin picked Ajisen and I picked miso ramen. Yum Yum. Thinking about it makes my stomach growl. The sad part is that I couldn't finish one bowl of ramen. It is just too much. Thankfully, I didn't order the set meal. 

After lunch, we went to K-box and sang our hearts out!!! The funniest part is that when the time was up, we muted the sound system, listened to the music from the neighbour room, thanks to the not-so sound proof walls and sang along with them using our microphones, only to realize that the people from the neighbouring room weren't using microphones and could actually hear us sing through our microphones. Embarrassing to the max!!!! As we passed by their dimly-lit room on our way out, I could feel their cold and hard stares directing at us. Perhaps I was being very sensitive, but decided not to care about it after Samantha pointed out that the likelihood of us meeting them again is low. 

This was how I spent my $50 dollars. 

A few days ago, I spent another $50 dollars, when we went out to celebrate Verena's birthday. So, in total, I spent more than $100 dollars this week. GG. I am feeling broke this month. T.T Moral of the story: do not place two birthday celebrations on the same week. However, it is unavoidable. Sigh. 

This was what my sis told me when I couldn't fall asleep last night, "You are awake, because you are alive in someone else's dream." So cheesy!!! Look what university has done to her.

Seeing my sis experience her freshman year makes me thrilled and scared at the same time. I am thrilled at the thoughts of all the new opportunities and experiences (listening to lectures and taking notes down, using a laptop or tablet instead of the traditional paper and pen- a completely new lifestyle).

However, I am scared. University goes by the bell-curve system. I may be good, but I don't know if I will be good enough for them. ): My sister scored 72 out of 100 for her MATLAB test. I consider it to be quite high. However, her score is lower than the average in her faculty and she probably will get a B or C. It looks quite bad on the transcript. My poor sis ):

Survival of the fittest! Everything boils down to this theory. Only the most powerful and strongest survives. This leads me to question myself: Am I good enough? And it is one of the questions which I always have difficulty answering. I know I am good, but I don't know if I am good enough. ): I am so scared of getting a C for any module. Am I good enough to compete with those people from HCJC, RJC and other junior colleges? Am I good enough to compete with those ORD-ed guys who have extra two years worth of experiences? I am scared that if I go into business school, I am no match for them. What is the point of getting a diploma in business, if I ended up being the bottom of the cohort, getting Cs for all the modules?

I am feeling so small and tiny. ): suddenly, I don't feel like graduating. I want to dwell in the comfort of NUS High School, where the grades are not bell-curved. At least I know that if I work hard, I won't get a 'C'. Perhaps, I should study pure science? Pure physics perhaps?? At least I know that NUS High School's physics hons modules will prep me well and I am guaranteed a B. (: tehehehe

Time is ticking. I have to make up my mind fast. The pressure is increasing. I will find the light at the end of the tunnel. Life is not about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

In times of distress, let me turn and seek God.

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Dear God,

I am so confused about my future now. Everywhere I turn, the doors seem to close tightly. I don't even know what I should do now. In every decision I make, I will seek your approval. I hope that you will begin to show me your will and directions.

Jeremiah 29: 11 "For I know the plans or you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Sorry for the times that I sinned. Wash me clean with your blood.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.

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The awkward moment when you brought the exact amount to buy your food and you realized that they charge $0.10 for takeaways!!!!

Yesterday was so fun. I went out with Felecia, Samantha, Weiqi and Zhenjie to celebrate dearest Verena's birthday.  

Firstly, we ate at marche. Yum yum. (: took polaroid pictures. <3 div="" first="" i="" is="" lost="" my="" nbsp="" now="" one.="" only="" picture="" polaroid="" since="" this="">

Secondly, we sang K-box. I was hoarding the microphone. LOLOLOLOL. 

Thirdly, we went shopping and I bought high-heels for my prom. Hooray! 

Thank God for yesterday. <3 a="" div="" fun="" had="" i="" nbsp="" such="" time.="">

It feels so awesome to be up at 9.30am without having to care about anything. Hooray! Exams are over~ I am still at an insanely crazy hyper mood. It feels as though I have been drugged, as I haven't felt this prolonged sense of relief in my entire 18 years. My favourite cover of heart attack. DEMI! I hope that demi will pick Singapore as one of her destinations for her Neon Lights world tour, if she is holding one. I really hope she comes!! I also hope that Taylor Swift will come to Singapore for her Red world tour. I am so in love with Red album and DEMI album that I practically memorized the lyrics of almost all the songs.

Finally, I finished my last paper in NUS High. 

When I got home, one of the first things I did was to watch shutter island. The entire show is perfection, even though the show left me with doubts. I need to watch the entire show again some time later. 

Here is my list of post-exam activities: 

1. Finish reading pride and prejudice. 

2. Read the great gatsby. 

3. Watch shutter island. 

4. Celebrate my mum's birthday which falls on the 10th October. 

5. Celebrate Verena's birthday on the 11th October. 

6. Celebrate Simin's birthday next saturday. 

7. Finish my super over-due physics assignment tomorrow. 

8. Pack my room. 

9. Redesign my room. 

10. Find a holiday job/ internship. 

I will finish all these tasks by 20th October. 

Oh a side note, I am super scared of script-checking. I wish that I will miraculously fall sick on the actual day of script-checking. ): I wish so. I fear for my CAP/ GPA. 

T.T

Thank God for my physics result!

I don't think I deserved it!

Thank you for the grace and mercy.

I will remember it.

Praise God!

Today was the last day of school and I was given a list of practice essay questions to attempt. I didn't practice those questions. Instead, I wrote about my reflections about homosexuality and Christianity.

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Nowadays, there is a heated debate in the Christianity community about the issue on homosexuality. Science has proven that attraction to the same gender can exist in nature. However, these attractions are detestable in God's eyes and are described as "sinful" in the bible. The issue here is that why would God being the creator of the universe, creates something so paradoxical?

I do not have the answer with me.

However, the main issue with homosexuality is that the people are not well-received by the Christian community. Some Christians condemn homosexuality by saying that the people who engage in these acts will go to hell etc. Yes, the homosexuality act should not be well-received, however, the people who engage in these acts should be well-received.  Just like a healthy person who does not need a doctor, Jesus did not come for the righteous, but came for the weak and sick. Therefore, all those who sinned and fall short of God's glory should be welcomed in the church. Church should be a place whereby groups of sinners come together, pray about their sins and receive strength to fight against the temptation of sinning, not a place whereby perfect people come together. Going to church means that you are admitting that you are weak against the temptations of the world and have to rely on the strength of God to overcome them.

In short, God hates the sin, but loves the sinner.

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On the way back home today, I tripped and fell down a flight of stairs at Yishun bus interchange. It was really embarrassing. I was secretly glad that there wasn't a lot of people then. My embarrassment was soon  replaced by a sudden jolt of happiness as I reminisced about the "Mermaid Fall" in year 3 or 4. 

LOLOLOL.

I miss year 3 and 4. I miss the good old times of playing cards, getting caught by Mr Chia, getting scolded by Mr Yeo for not listening to him, singing Taylor Swift's songs in the middle of lesson and much more. Today, I really felt the gravity of the sucky situation I am currently in! I forgot that the deadline of applications for local university is the end of the year, until Weiqi approached Mr Allan and asked him about it. 

I am very unclear of my future. Now, I am oscillating between dentistry and business. The more I think about dentistry, the more it loses its appeal. Most probably, I will not be applying for dentistry. Matthew 6: 26. Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

Do not worry. Always be ready when God calls you. 

Why be afraid? To make an honest mistake. If you acknowledge the pain, and you wanna change, you can get through anything.

I am really very emotional nowadays. I guess emotional instability is common during the graduation period and I know that I am not the only one who is being emotional. Many posted on Facebook about their experience attending the last CCA session and how they would miss their CCA. 

Tomorrow will be my last PE session ever. No more PE in university. I happened to injure my toe pretty badly (it is now dislocated and bleeding,) Technically, I can sit out of tomorrow's PE lesson, if I want. This should call for a celebration, because my last PE session will be a slack one. My rational mind tells me that sitting out of tomorrow's PE lesson is the right thing to do. However, my heart tells me that I will miss tomorrow's PE lesson, even though I grumbled so much in the past about having to run during PE lessons. This time, my heart wins. 

Recently, my mind and heart are constantly at war with each other. My mind told me that I should be glad that there would be no more CCA ever. However, I could not get rid of the sadness that was lingering in my heart. HELP! I really do wish that my mind and heart can stop being so uncooperative!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am an escapist.

My chemistry report was due yesterday. Yet, my report was still uncompleted.  Today, in class, I only realized that only Byorn Tan had handed in the chemistry report. Hahaha. The other 18 people hadn't. I don't know how to make sense of the data. I really don't feel like doing chemistry report. ): HELPPPPPP!

Let faith arise.
Let faith arise.

I lift my hands to believe again.
You are my refuge.
You are my strength.
As I pour out my heart,
these things I remember.
You are faithful, God, forever.

<3 nbsp="" p="">
P.S. I want to change to wordpress soon. Blogger kept on popping up weird, strange ads. 

In God, I will trust.

I hope one day, my faith will be as strong as a rock.

This is a testimonial.

On the way back home from School, I took the route to Buona Vista. However, due to the fact that tomorrow is teachers' day celebration, I have nothing on to do today. I made it a point to go to Clementi mall to shop for teachers' day gift and to purchase a silver cross pendant from a store. I reminded myself time and again, but I forgot.

I decided to drop by Northpoint. There were booths, selling pendants. What a coincident! Perhaps it was fated for me to buy a silver cross pendant. At the booths, I saw this pretty silver cross pendant. However, it was retailing at $25, which is quite expensive. I am broke this week. T.T So, I didn't buy it and headed for the library to borrow some entertaining books for me to read during the long vacation.

In the library, I was wondering that it would be great if I could buy the pendant for $20. I braved myself to ask her the question after I borrowed the book. However, after I borrowed the book, I hesitated. It just felt wrong to bargain with someone in a shopping mall, where all the prices are fixed. So, I wanted to chicken out and I told God, "The lift is at 3rd floor now. If it goes up to the 4th floor ( aka library ), I will ask the auntie whether she can sell it to me for $20." Sure enough, the lift went to 4th floor and I had no choice, but to not chicken out. After I asked the auntie, she told me, "It is very nice to see that I am very sincere to buy the cross" and she was willing to sell it for $20. She told me, "God bless you and xue ye jing bu."

:D :D :D :D

Super cute.

Counting Down

Week 8 now.
Week 12. End of Semester.
Week 13-14 Exams.

----- Graduation -------

Hello to freedom! Bye to homework, tests and exams. I will make sure that I will miss you all! Can't wait for the day that I will throw my graduation cap into the sky and shout "I have graduated from NUS High!!!!". Excitement is bubbling up within me. I will be unlocking a new stage of life. In addition, no more English!!!! No more essays!!! No more discussion about politics, globalization, environment etc. Ethics is still okay. (: However, I really really hate essays. My writing skill CMI.

Going to sleep soon. I felt so tired after 15th Asian Chemical Congress. Goodnight!

I want to go for Demi lovato's DEMI concert and Taylor Swift's Red concert.

Time to save up.

Onerepublic is coming to singapore on 29 October!!!

I hope I am in UQ now.

T.T

Sam, Weiqi, Jiahong and Simin are having so much fun. D: And I am stuck here with a mountain of homework. Tsk.

P.S. Twelve Cupcakes (Y)

Idk what happened to me.

In the past, I shared sleeping room with my two sisters. I live in a 5-room HDB. One room is for my mum and dad. Another is for my grandma. Another was used to be our study room. The last one is our sleeping area. However, during the start of July, I moved into the study room and it became my sleeping room, while my two sisters occupy the original sleeping room.

In the past, I was very messy and disorganized. Felecia can testify. However, now I am a very organized person and I became more and more OCD. T.T

I got irritated if my sisters went into my room and messed up the place. OCD!!! D:

Made in the US, Made in the US, Made in the USA.

Today, I had the second lesson of my Physics module for this semester. This semester, we are learning about relativity.

Today is the day that I learnt about Albert Einstein's secret for success. A little background about Albert Einstein (I don't know if you knew about it, so I just write it down, just in case you didn't know). Albert Einstein disposed what man knew of relativity. Man thought that the time for all inertial reference frame was the same. ie. the time for everyone regardless of whether you are moving in a constant speed, or whether you are at rest is the same.

However, after a series of experiment, Albert Einstein found out out that there was something wrong with this equation. Instead, he proposed that time is different for everyone with different inertial reference frame. ie. If you are moving, your time will pass at a different rate as compared to someone who is stationary. He modernized and created this special relativity theory and thus, revolutionizing what Man knew of space and time.

When I was learning about it, I was like, "this thing is so mind-blowing. this entire concept is really beyond me." I gave up halfway listening to Mr Lim and instead, talked to Claire, as I sat next to her during Physics. I made a passing comment that "Who would have thought of such a theory as time is different from different moving object? Albert Einstein is such a genius" She began telling me stories of old thinkers. She told me about this special case of roman numbers. Roman numbers are "I, II, III, IV, V, VI, VII, VIII, IX, X" She asked me, "What is missing?" Initially, I couldn't figure out. However, after she prompted, I figured out that there was no "0" in the situation. Then, she told me how the people in the past found it so hard to understand the concept of 0. They found it hard to understand that "nothing" can be a number, and this number can be before 1. In the past, people spent so long, debating about the existence of 0.

Then, it struck my mind that 0 was something which I learnt in primary school! I mused at this fact that when I was in primary school, my intelligence was higher than the people in the past, as I was able to grasp the concept of 0 immediately. However, I knew that this was obviously wrong. I wasn't smarter. After deep thoughts and analysis, I finally found out the reason why. The fact that I managed to understand is solely because of I was a child. It may sound very bemusing initially, but it isn't.

Albert Einstein came out with this quote, "Minds are like parachutes; they work best when open." When I was young, my mind was open and therefore, I was able to comprehend the concept of zero. In the past, people could not comprehend the entire concept because they were sticking to the old notion of that there had to be something in everything. There was no such thing such as nothing.

I was being like the people of the past. I was holding strongly onto the notion that time passes by the same for everyone. I was not challenging what I knew. Mathematics and Science are quite beautiful, because they are never as straight forward as language. No one can ever dispute content for English. However, for Mathematics and Science, we are constantly discovering new things that redefine what we knew.

Afterwards, with my new mindset, I managed to follow and learnt something during the rest of the lecture.

Through the experience, it is sad to realize how I lost my child-likeness, how I was receptive to new things and how much I had changed from a child.

Matthew 18:3 "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." See how much Jesus values child-likeness.

Dear God,

thanks for opening my mind to see how unchild-like I was. I prayed that you will always allow me to have the ability and courage to challenge whatever I know, as well as I do. Help me find back my child-likeness. In your strength and providence, I trust.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.

I will find my childlikeness again!

D:

I am starting to like to sound of reality.

I am not being cynical.

However, reality is important for one to progress. We must know our standings, in order to see the true big picture and from then on, we can take up measurable steps to propel us forward. However, many of us are living a lie. I am guilty of this. Sometimes, we imagine ourselves to be greater than who we really are. Sometimes, we overestimate our abilities. A talk with Ansel on Friday during CCA made me bounce back to reality. I am quite grateful, having talked to him. We were discussing about our future prospects. He shared that there was this girl who had gotten into NUS medicine. She did CIP in hospital for 4 years. We are not talking about a short 1 year, but 4 years! You might think 4 years add up to nothing. However, mind you, we are just 18 years old. Let's eliminate the first 12 years of our lives, because during the first twelve years of our lives, we hardly know who we are. Let alone, what should we do in the future. When we start to think about it, it will be around 13 years old. For some, they are even thinking about it at the age of 18. Let's assume that this girl really thought about being a doctor when she was 13 years old. So, from 13 years old to now, it should be around 5 years? During this 5 years, she spent 4 years, volunteering in the hospital. That is really impressive. The fact that she didn't give up makes it all the more impressive.

So, here is the link. I am going to apply for dentistry. Dentistry is going to offer only 50 places. Scary, isn't it?  There are 1200 people who applied for it. Imagine out of the thousands, ten people volunteered in dental clinics for 3 years and more. They had secured their seats. So, that made up 40 seats remaining. 40 seats remaining for 1190 people to fight for. T.T I am so scared that I couldn't get into dentistry. Judging by the statistics, I don't think I can get into dentistry. This reality check made me realize that the world is so much bigger. We are often confined by our small, narrow and myopic opinion about the world, because of the small environment that we are enclosed in.

Actually, failure does not feel so bitter, if we have done a reality check on ourselves. Failure only hurts when we set expectations too high that we cannot reach. The reason why we set high expectations is plain to see- we are overconfident of our own abilities.

Below is how my view of myself changed throughout the past few years.

Primary 1 to Primary 6: I am smart. I get into the best class in my school.
Year 1 to Year 6: I am not so smart. However, the fact that I am in NUS High School, makes me slightly above average.
Recently: I am so average.

In the past, I was overconfident of my abilities. However, now that I know I am really average, I won't feel so much disappointment in life. Yes, I will still chase my dream and do my best to get into dentistry. However, I also come to accept the fact that if I didn't get into dentistry, it is not that I suck, but just that I am just average.

YES, I SHOULD ADOPT THIS MENTALITY FROM NOW ON.

Stupidity to the max. 

Yesterday, I had an electricity shock. I pulled the power plug out of the socket without switching off the switch AND I ingeniously touched  the metal part of the power plug. 

T.T 

Recently, I suffered from a lot of injuries. It seems like I am a walking magnet for accidents. They just have a way of finding me somehow. I had a lot of paper cuts on my fingers and blue blacks on me. 

T.T

And let me know that it's not all in my mind.

All I know is we said hello
So dust off your highest hope
All I know is pouring rain
All I know is a newfound brightness
All my days, I know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed.

This song is so nice. Everything has changed by Taylor Swift. Her songs are so addictive. How can I ever be sick of her songs? I love all her songs. I will be a swiftie forever. <3 p="">

Ambivalent. 

This word precisely captures what I am feeling now. 

1. I am looking forward to graduation- farewell assembly (the performances) , the graduation ceremony (wearing the cap and throwing it in the sky- I have been waiting for this day for 6 years), prom (taking pictures and eating good food) and the freedom to do whatever I want (eg. doing attachments). However, I am really sad that each morning after I wake up, I will not go back to school. I will miss seeing the familiar faces. 

2. I do not know what is God's plan for me. Everything seems so muffled and cloudy. I feel as if I am being blinded. God, please lift this hand that has been covering my eyes and not allowing me to see. Or have You already lifted? If so, am I lacking? I have been feeling so vex now that my graduation is nearing and I do not really have a clue of what should I do. I have considered dentistry, but I do not know if my liking for the dentistry is strong enough to sustain me throughout the entire career. I am only a bit passionate, but not super head-over-heels in love with dentistry. Will that little bit of passion get me through my entire career? I really don't know. 

What I know is that I will stand by God's side forever and always. I will always be proud to declare that I am a Christian, proud to be God's steward and proud to be the "light and salt of the world". Forgive me for any sin that I had committed. 

In Jesus' name,
Amen. 

Yesterday, I watched Now You See Me with my family. It is quite a nice movie. However, the ending is a bit abrupt. *SPOILER AHEAD* I feel that they should talk about the eye more. The movie ended with them joining the eye. However, nothing is being said about the eye- eg. how the eye operates in real life. I hope that there is a sequel to it. I like the twist in the story.

Today, I noticed and witnessed an epitome of true love. There was this couple, a black man and a white woman, sitting directly in front of me on a bus. They were so cute. They made me feel the love between them. It was so pure and holy that I really wanted to give them my blessings. I was sure everyone else in the bus want to do the same. They were looking at each other's soul. It was so beautiful. I felt just so happy looking at them. I just couldn't put this feeling into words. They made me believe that true love really exists.

Later on, as I was walking back home from the bus stop, I saw my neighbor's family sitting on the benches. However, their backs were facing me. So they could not see me. The father and mother are nice people. However, I do not know why. They have two kids, who are wheelchair bound. Looking at the family there, it felt as if their love is so strong that it allows them to support and raise the two handicapped kids together. Another example of true love.

Look closely and I realize that the world is filled with beautiful people, with beautiful mind and with beautiful love.

I have been recently watching the final one- a singapore singing competition.

I am so amazed by the talents. However, I am really disappointed with how the singing competition is organized. Tsk! The entire show will be much better with much more organization.

Firstly, how can they make the audience have not seen more than 2 performance from each contestant, including the one from the live show?? X factor let the audience seen the audition, bootcamp and judges' home. Then, they put them to live and the judges' mentor needs to eliminate one person. Then, the audience start to vote!!! This is not a representative of the TRUE cream of the crops from the competition. Mediacorp has been commercializing it too much.

Secondly, I feel as if Mediacorp already have their own winners. I feel as if the winners have already been decided. It is so blatantly obvious. From the start, they have been starring and giving some selected contestants a lot of air time. For example, Glen, Debbi and Hashy. They have been asking them for their comments and filming their expression -.- I am not against them, but please be fair. Other contestants have equal potential!!!!

I am really disappointed. Good talents, but unequal distribution of resources.

I do not know what to feel after reading this article. A lot of people shared this article- The Singaporean's Times. Angry Man Sells House to Finance Daughter's Medical Studies Overseas.

It is sad how much he has to do to finance his daughter's study, until the extent of selling his house. It is really sad to see 50 years old parents having no place for themselves to live and had to stay with their 80 years old parents. Yet, this is a decision which they made, but they ended up being angry and are blaming the government.

NUS medicine takes in a lot of Singaporeans, and just only a handful of foreigners. Even if these foreigners are not taken it, and replaced by a few others Singaporeans, his daughters may not get a chance to go to the medicine school too. Also, won't Singapore be regarded as an extremely ungracious, xenophobic and third-world country, if we didn't take in any foreigners?

Government is increasing the amount of doctors. If his daughter came back to Singapore with her higher class degree in medicine, I am sure that the probability of her being hired is much higher than the probability of other foreigner doctors, with a "third-class degree" as quoted from the article. So, I do not understand what the father is raging about.

I am sick and tired of reading Straits Times column about the citizens condemning what the PAP are doing. I do agree that the influx of foreigners is getting too taxing and they should do something about it. However, nowadays, they are associating whatever situations that cropped up with PAP's incompetency. like MRT breakdowns and foreigners???? People must accept the fact that government is unable to provide antidote for all the flaws in the world. There is only a maximum which the government can do for its people. If I were elected into the parliament under PAP, I will quit after a day. The burden is too heavy for me to stand.

A disease of the mind
That can control you.
It's too close for comfort.

~ Disturbia

I seem to be bewitched by the new Xperia Z phone. Xperia V is also equally good. I want to marry either Xperia Z or Xperia V. I can re-contract in another 7 months and 8 days, which means at the end of the year, I can change my phone :D This is a random post to destress. 

I have a lot of work to do. 

1. Monday: Physics Honours E&M test, which consists of last sem and this sem worth of stuff. 

2. Tuesday: English Presentation and Biology AP quiz. 

3. Wednesday: Chemistry Practical Test and Quiz

4. Thursday: Physics Honours Mechanics Test 2, which is 10% of my total grade!!!!

I don't feel like revising. Instead, I want to plunge myself into this reading-storybook-marathon. D: 

I have been quote-hunting and found some quotes that I really really like.

Some people are just so poor that the only thing that they have is money.
Ironic, but true. I hope that in the future, I won't be too poor that I only have money.

It has been quite long since I last read bible. I am guilty of that. I always rely on services to make up for the loss of spiritual nourishment. Time for me to read the bible, the most thought provoking book.

Thank God that yesterday was good friday. Thank you God for dying on the cross for every single one of us. Thank you for paying for our sin. Thank you for everything that you have given us. "So, you would come" is a nice song.


nothing you can do, could make you love you more. nothing that you've done, could make him close the door. because of his great love, he gave his only son. everything was done, so you would come. come to the father, though your gift is small. broken hearts, broken lives, he will take them all.

My physics Hons has hope!!! My MECHANICS :D :D :D

thanks to gracious Mr Ricardo who gave a thought about my CAP.

Quizzes makes up 20% of our grades, which I screwed up. I failed my quizzes. I got 0 for one. Thanks to Mr Ricardo, I can upgrade 2 of my lousiest quizzes score to full marks. Imagine from 0 to full marks. Life is definitely good :D :D :D :D

Of course, that comes with a price. It is to finish the 10 year series for AP Physics C Mechanics. But, getting full marks for 2 quizzes!!!! Changing from 0 to full marks. 3 to full marks also!!! Worth it. The due date is before 18 April. PLUS, you do not need to get full marks for all the questions. You will only need to do it yourself. He wants us to test our abilities. :D :D :D

thank you Mr Ricardo. Our entire class was like worshiping him for his graciousness. LOLOL.

I am sick. T.T

I had fever and headache. Shit. I hope to get well soon. D: D: D;

Despicable me 2 trailer is out. It is super cute. :D :D :D I am planning to watch this soon

Thank God for School Holidays (:

Can you imagine if studying is the same as working? Can you imagine only having 10 days worth of leave? Life will be horrible.

Saw this interesting quote online.

ASSUMPTIONS IS THE MOTHER OF SCREW-UPS.

LOLOL. How true to a certain extent.

What should I write for my essay? How I wish I can write as brilliantly as Jonathan Tan or Byorn Tan. Then, I won't be freaking out here, staring blankly at the question paper and wishing that I won't have to write essay tomorrow.

Reflections from going to NTU Open House:

Finally decide what courses I want to go.
1. Dentistry.
2. Medicine.
3. Accounting.

Yup, I will apply for Dentistry in NUS, Medicine in NTU, accounting courses local and overseas and accounting scholarships.

Sometimes I want to tune people out. The pressure to study engineering is so great. Everyone in my family wants me to study engineering, but I am really sure that I won't want engineering. I don't want to be the person other wants me to be. I want to be the person who I truly want to be. Hence, I don't want to be an engineer. T.T I pray that I won't regret my decision.

Thank God that I survived this week. Below are the happenings and reflection for this week:

This week has been really eventful. On Wednesday, my electric fan came!!! (: Now, I feel so comfortable sleeping with the fan. (:  I fixed the fan by myself for the first time. I was very intrigued by the entire process- the fixing and everything else. I couldn't have figured out how to fix the electric fan by myself, if not for my dad's help. It showed me that there are a lot of life skills which I have yet to learn. After assembling my fan, I helped my sisters fix theirs. What a great sister I am! :D

On the same day, I watched UP. I can totally relate to the old man. It was never too late to start pursuing something that I like. Even though I haven't figured out what I am truly passionate about, I believe that I will figure out what I really like super soon. Sometimes, I feel as if I am like the old man, carrying around unnecessary baggage in my life. I can totally relate to the part where the house started flying after the old man moved all the furniture out of the house. Sometimes, I wish I can turn back time, go back in time and change the outcome. Example: When I received zero for one of the In-class assignments for Physics Honors  I wished that I studied harder. I feel really good and liberated after watching that part.

Yesterday, I watched Oz, the great and powerful with my sisters and my brother.We brought him in, because he wanted to watch with us. When the show was ending, someone started talking on the phone loudly. He was saying in Mandarin, "I am watching a show. The show is ending soon." He was talking in a loud voice for one minute. The people behind me started saying "Diam la" I hope I spell it correctly. I think that their action was very rude. I can sympathize with them, as we want to enjoy the show. However, the man was ending his call. Why not try exercising some patience and tolerance? The world might be a better place.

 In the hurry to watch the movie, I rushed out of house in a super uncomfortable pair of sneakers. It was so uncomfortable that I had blisters on my feet. T.T This probably explains why I was in quite a dull and unhappy mood today until my dad sent an SMS to me: "Stingray for dinner!" I felt so touched and my face just lit up. I made a passing comment last Sunday that I haven't eaten stingray for a very long time. Thank God for giving me such a good dad. Even though it was a passing remark, he cooked stingray for me. Thank you!

I feel so fortunate that God  has given me a wonderful family and giving me new lenses for me to see things in a different light.

Thank God that there is no assessment for the rest of this week. (:

Tomorrow is my sister and Zhen Jie's birthday.

Happy Birthday to them in advance (:

Tomorrow is the premier of Oz the Great and Powerful. Looks nice! It is also directed by the same person who directed Spiderman trilogy. I love Disney (: Can't wait for the show to be out. I want to watch that show.

You make me glow
But I cover up, won't let it show
 So I'm putting my defenses up
 Cause I don't wanna fall in love.
 If I ever did that, I think I'd have a heart attack.

My sister just received back her A level results. Congratulations to her. She got 85 rank points out of 90. It is considered quite high. She scored higher than my entire family's expectations. She thought she screwed up super badly and came home crying after a number of the exam papers.

She is deciding on which course she is applying now. My entire family is getting hyped up because we are going to have our first university student in the family. Now, my sister has this super funny nickname, "Pre-University Student". She also got $200 dollars from my grandma for entering into Uni. What a life!

I am bent on going to Dentistry. However, I don't think I can get in. I have no confidence and faith that I will be good enough. Out of 300 shortlisted applicants, they are only selecting 40-50. What is the possibility that they will select me? My CCA is not that awesome, coupled with no distinct leadership role. I need to brainwash them into thinking that I am a super nice person to get into dentistry (: awesome plan! I will blog about that after giving it some thoughts.

Traits about Myself

1. Happy-go-lucky. I am not someone who will dig trouble for myself. I always don't get why people will want to dig trouble for themselves as if the world itself has not enough troubles?

I will blog more after I do some soul-searching. Ciao. Time to mug for Math GCT

her voice sounds like those typical disney princess. so sweet. (: Hahaha. Use somebody. I love Hannah Trigwell. What a nice surname. Trigwell. Her voice is so pure and delicate and she is so pretty. Chrissy is so pretty. I am fan-girling over youtube artists. LOLOL.

Congratz to Samantha for getting a signature from Jeanette Aw! 

I will survive today. (: 

Left with Chemistry report. 

My eyelids are so heavy. I feel as if I can crash now. I love Nathan (: I just realized I hadn't blogged about Nathan before. Nathan is Cheryl's stuff toy. It is super cute. I really love it. I love hugging it especially when I am depressed. Eg today, after english presentation. 

I should bring my teddy bear to school on the days when I will get depression ( script-checking). I feel like a little kid >< smuggling stuff toy to school. Good old primary school days. :P I smuggled a doll to school once. (: I tried to do it the next time and got caught by my mum. :P all these little sweet memories that made up my childhood (:

I found a very interesting article, discussing about how to get good sleep.

1. sleep at a regular time.

Goal: Sleep at 10.30pm everyday.

2. Wake up at a regular time, which means 6am everyday. Imagine waking up at 6 am on saturday and sunday.

To Do List for Tomorrow:
- meet dr dewey for poster
- rehearsal with Cheryl before meeting dr dewey
- english current affairs presentation
- chemistry report.
- prepare for research congress.

Just watched this show. The twist in story plot is so unexpected but it was nice nevertheless. :D Recently, I have been listening to Chinese songs and watching chinese movies because of Cheryl. Cheryl is a fan of Chinese pop. I do not know why I am sick of english songs and I skipped every single of them in my phone. Next week is research congress. Hopefully, I will get distinction for my ARP. I didn't even get into SSEF. T.T getting a distinction will make me feel better (:

Phew! I felt so relieved after everything is over. 

Firstly, I had 3 Physics Hons Quizzes! Quizzes! the last one was okay (: can pass the last one, but I am not sure about the first two. Secondly, English AQ. I had surprisingly lots of things to say. LOLOL. I used 3 pieces of paper for it. Lastly, OSAP interview for Cern. I don't wish to think about it le. T.T I got shot down. 

When I was on my way home, I saw this guy giving out fliers. Initially, I wanted to walk past him without taking the fliers. Then, this little girl went forward and took a flier from him voluntarily. I was surprised. I didn't expect anyone to take a flier voluntarily and the most shocking part is that he had a form of disability. On the surface, he may look like a normal guy. But after looking deeper, giving out fliers was actually quite a tough job for him because he wasn't very good with his hands. I think he has muscle dystrophy. Poor guy. It actually made me feel so stupid and silly, worrying about OSAP results, Physics in class quizzes and AQ. 

Thank God for showing me how blessed I was through this little actions. 

D:

cheryl and i didn't get into SSEF. T.T nvm. think on the bright side. we can eat mcdonalds ice cream and slack off. 

We thought of getting gold for SSEF. LOLOL.

I forgot to blog about the most important thing.

STUPID KHAIRUL INSAN!!!!!

you made me spill the beans!!!!!

i became more confused after talking to you!

Cheryl Leong and her obsession.

She started fangirling over jay chou in class on Wednesday when we were supposed to do ARP poster. -.-

For the past few days, I have been replaying some old chinese songs.



this video is so LOLOL. esp the part where jay chou started fighting. but the mv is sad. D:





i dont really like jay chou's current new songs. Jay chou reminds me a bit of taylor swift. Both of them compose nice songs :D

Yay! Done my CNY shopping already. I managed to buy 2 set of clothes for $30.00. Both of them look quite nice :D I should post some pictures of myself.

This is what I will be wearing when I go bai nian. I should not post the other set because I will be lending my sister for CNY and also because it will potentially be my prom dress. LOLOL. $12 dollars for my prom dress. 

Special thanks to my younger sister for taking the time out to got shopping with me. :D

T.T

wisdom tooth. why do you cause so much pain to me? my stupid wisdom tooth kept on causing me trouble. the wisdom tooth sank into the side of cheeks at least 5 times. ouch! this caused me to lose appetite totally. D: 

T.T

i am so scared for tomorrow. in class and quizzes and english essay. i will survive today and tomorrow.

Physics is my source of depression. T.T  esp Physics Hons. 

I always get the horrible feeling after sitting for a physics quiz and knowing that I screwed it up. T.T but things are getting better. Last year, I had a hate-hate relationship with physics because I don't understand anything at all. But now, there is a love-hate relationship with physics. At least I understand something, but I don't know how to apply. 

Jiayous Mei Zhen! You can do it. 

Looking back, I felt silly taking physics hons. I knew it was a bad idea, yet I still went against it.Perhaps God has other plans for me. 

Hardwork will make up for lack of talent. :D JY JY JY! 

Last Sunday was so fun!I went ice-skating with the girls. Samantha, Simin and Aisyah are the pros, while Weiqi, Felecia and me are the noobs. >< That was my second time ice-skating, yet after that outing, I still can't really skate properly without falling. It was an embarrassment to go with me >< I screamed whenever I was about to fall. Thankfully, I didn't fall at all. :D i lost my voice after the outing. Tomorrow, I am going to Simin's housewarming. :D so excited to eat BBQ marshmallow. :D Suddenly, I am craving for it like crazy. To Fele Tay: Happy Birthday!!!

New Quote from me. My chair feels so uncomfortable whenever I am studying, but I don't feel the slightest discomfort when I am using the Internet. :P

Before You Exit. What happened to Thomas and Braiden? D: D: D: I like it when all of them are together. D: now it is just the McDonough Brothers. D:

this is one of my favourite songs from one of my favourite singers of all times. :D glad that they did a cover of this. this is nice too! I wanted to watch this movie too!

(: you have earned yourself another subscriber :D

It has been quite long since I last blogged.

Today, my mum made sushi :D Sushi + Green tea = Yummy :D It is super super super super super nice. I eat 2 big rolls of sushi.

T.T Bye holidays. School is starting soon. We should go out more. I haven't gone out during this holidays. This is my last year in NUS High. I am really looking forward to graduation and to uni life. I think uni courses are much interesting than pure physics, chemistry and biology.

However, I am still stuck and can't make up my mind on what should i do in uni D: Dentistry? Not that sure though. I should continue to pray about it.

Tomorrow is Christmas :D YAY! Christmas :D :D :D

Recently, my faith has been restored, thanks to Verena. She invited me to her church camp. It was quite fun :D and I met Princess Vanessa (aka Verena's sister). Vanessa is really a typical princess. Hahaha. I really have to agree with Verena that she is a princess.

Bye (: I should start buying stationery, diary and other things for the start of the new term :D

my new inspiration is david correy. he gave his number to his fans?!?! it is insane, but he is ultra cool. congratz on being on having a recording contract. :D what i have learnt from him: 1. give in the best that I have, something i am quite guilty of not going. 2. somethings winning means losing and losing means winning. :D deep and profound. 3. last time, you were flying, now you are soaring. --> my new goal to work towards to :D :D :D :D his new singles. i think i will buy his concert tickets and his album. everything about him is good, except for the body tattoos. enjoy! i really like him equally as taylor swift. don't know which one i like better, taylor swift's new album red is so addictive. her songs are like drugs. red, girl at home, come back... be here, starlight, i knew you were trouble, we are never never getting back together, begin again. :D my life these days are quite boring. ARP everyday and x factor, david correy, taylor swift and nothing else. i do wish to do something interesting.

LA???? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MINDS WHEN YOU LET SUCH A GUY OFF? HE IS THE TRIUMPH CARD FOR YOU. BRING HIM BACK TO THE SHOWS!!!!!!!!!!! I enjoyed EVERY of his performances. I just can't get rid of his voice. His voice is so magical that it haunts me. I really really can listen to him all day. Please please x factor. Bring him back like how you all brought diamond white. In my opinion, he is way way way much better than Diamond White. Okay. Today, I had a one day attachment to faculty of dentistry. We can practically see and know what a dentist feels like. Their lives are not bad. Quite hands-on. Good for me as I am unable to sit still typing in front of the computer. I need to move around. Oh, on the side note, the bonus is that the students there are mostly good looking. Their skin are flawless and they are very well-mannered. :D :D :D :D :D Before I end this, I really do hope they bring David back on the show. Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

This year's x factor is much worse than last year's one. D:

I am only watching for Jennel, Beatrice, Carly and Vino.

Over 25s, these are the ones I wish to get through to the top 3.
The last one is my favourite out of the over 25s. The teens. These are the ones I wish to get through to the top 3. hahaha, he is not as good as carly, but he is cute. :D She is good, but her style is so similiar to Carly. Dont know if she can get in. D:

Thank you God for telling me that miracles still exist.

Luke 17:6 He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you.

:D 

x factor!!!!!! :D

i started to replay the x factor 2011 videos.


still can't get it why she was out when she sang this song. D: I can understand perhaps why LA would choose his own contestant, but Paula and Nicole??? one of my all time favourite been listening to it all night since two days ago. i still can't get over her awesome vocal. can you believe it? now, 2012. awesome style. her style is unique. simon stopped her halfway. can't wait to see her at the bootcamp. i haven't been watching a lot of the videos. I should catch up soon after exams. :D see you.

Utterly stressed- haven't shopped for presents, do laundry, rehearsal for the Xi'An trip, packing of Xi'An trip stuff, English report, Eco Bio Tioman Report all due on the same day.

JIAYOUS!! I will pull through.

Things have been on such a fast pace that everything whizzed past without me having the time to document everything down. D:

First major thing that occurred in my life is Tioman! It has been a fun-filled experience, with me having close encounters with my fear everyday. The first day is the worst! No wonder everyone says the first step is the hardest. We boarded the bus for around four to five hours before changing to a ferry for another two hours. Throughout the bus journey, I hadn't been drinking and hydrating myself. Sometimes, I would fall asleep or just sing in the bus or listen to Sam's Ipod touch or camwhorled with Sam. It was not the extreme that type. We only took 4 pictures and gave up due to poor lighting. D:

Upon reaching the island, the first thing that I noticed is that there were cats everywhere, ranging from your dining area to the beach and forest! I was like, Oh God, help me through it. I had an illogical fear for cats. -.-  But everyone is fearful of something after a trauma. The cats there were quite daring. They would go up to you and pestered you for food. D: They had no fear for animals and would brush past your legs. Ewww.... the thought of it would make the hair on my neck stand. YUCKS! On the first day, I broke down. D: I couldn't believe that the day would come for me to conqueror my fear for cats.

Subsequent days past back quite fast too! And soon, with the help of my friends, I managed to survive the 5 days! Now, I am less afraid of cats. I won't say that I am not fearful of cats anymore, but then I am not that afraid of cats :D :D :D good job meizhen! one step at a time! jiayous!

now, i should conqueror my fear for dogs :D

Olympics!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Stupid time zone. How I wish I stay nearer to London. Swimming finals occur at 2.00am to 4.30am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I desperately want to watch swimming. D: Perhaps I will search up youtube for it, but the experience of watching it live is unbeatable. Whenever I watch swimming live, I just get the feeling as if I am competing together along side by side with them, holding my breath while watching them and bursting into cheers and celebration afterwards. 

SHOCKING NEWS!!!!!!!!!!

I was reading this post about admission to NUS High on a forum (kiasuparents.com). To find out more about the students' lives in NUS High, parents just keyed in the class name M _ _ _ _ _ to access to their class blogs and from there, they found the link to go directly to some NUS High School students' blog. And it occurred in 2009. Internet is a very scary place for anyone to stumble across any secret information. D: and parents these days are scarily capable.

Should I make my blog private???

It has been such a long and tiring journey for the Xi'An inbound. Now, I am screwed for my tests and exams. Piles of overdue homework, thousands of upcoming quizzes and endless mugging to do. D:  I hate losing control of the situation. I feel like I am overwhelmed. Help!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

The previous week, I was really harsh and judgmental on several issues and on some people. A lot of small, petty stuffs got onto my nerve. I was feeling horrible throughout the entire week until I found this quote. Judging a person does not define who they are. It defines who you are. D; I am sorry for the times when I am impatient. Please understand that I was drained out and tired. I am not using this as my justification for being judgmental. But, please try to understand. 


Dear God, 


please help me not to be too quick to judge and not to judge as I am merely an imperfect person. D: let me refrain from judging, but be quick to understand and empathize.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.

Xi'An! They finally came! My buddy's name is Fan Chu Chu and the most important thing that we shared in common is that both of us love Taylor Swift!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I told her that in class, I would always sing Taylor Swift song with my friend. SAM YONG and CLARA YEO!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss the old times when we will sing taylor swift song- love story, back to december, ours and superman and others. I miss singing in class.

Xi'An Trip

It is confirmed that the Xi'An students are coming over for exchange program!!!!!!!!!!! They are coming to Singapore for a total of 10 days. It is so so so long that the teachers do not have any ideas where we can bring them, so our masterplan has a lot of breaks in between for them. During weekends, we must accompany them, which means no home and church for a week.

thankfully, the people I am going with are quite close with me. Cheryl and Verena :D :D :D V.NG!!! :D my mama during OBS. She will be taking care of me during the Xi'An trip.

that's all i am blogging. see you :D

D: Flu. I have been sick since last Friday. Last Friday, I went to the lab to build the model of the molecules which I was going to synthesize for the next coming lab session even though I wasn't feeling very well. I should have stayed at home and get a good rest instead. Afterwards, I had fever and started vomiting for 3 times consecutively. D: Now, even though the fever is gone, I still have sore throat, cough and running nose. I feel that my nose is going to drop from too much sneezing. Ah chew! I better go and sleep now. Goodnight (:

On Monday, I had the worst nightmare of my life. D: that day, we happened to be watching this channel 5 blockbuster movie- pearl harbor, a movie about the Japanese occupation for around 5 minutes only. And so coincidentally, I had a nightmare that night. I dreamt that Singapore was under attack by some foreign countries and I couldn't help but to fled in fear. The feeling is the same as walking on a tightrope without any safety equipment secured around my body. D: every step I took, I held my breath, hoping that I wouldn't come across any soldier and I knew that I couldn't stop at that moment- if I stopped, I would have been discovered and died instantly. D: when i met others, the first question I asked them was what country were they from. Initially, we gathered at this place all together- the more people there are, the better it is. But soon, we were outnumbered and had to retreat. The survivors had to gather at another place, while two other soldiers decided to make peace with the invaders. And the funniest thing is that the war started because of my brother. How ridiculous is that! Why did countries declare wars? War is nothing, but a lack of civilization. Real gentlemen and ladies settle issues without putting up a fight. I do hope that the world will not have World War III or any other war. War is so so so tiring. D: 

Also, yesterday we had a power shortage and it was so freaking hot yesterday. D: But, I managed to sleep until around 11am. :D It was quite cool and refreshing to cut off from all the technologies- Internet, laptop, TV, radio and more. This type of caveman lifestyle is not that bad as it seems.

Now, I am in hostel, sneezing until my nose turned cherry red. D: ah chew! The bed feels so hard. D: I miss my own bed at home. There is no place better than home; now I truly understand why they said that. I will miss my family a lot

Samantha Yong, a Year 5 student at NUS High, said producing the book was a learning experience of a lifetime. 

"What I learnt from this was that not to take things at the surface level because initially when we first saw the topic, we found it a bit boring. But then later the more we researched on it, the more we found it's very applicable to any normal man, and the more we found, it's actually very interesting... so it's a very good learning experience," she said.


LOLOLOLOLOLLOLOLOLOL. 


Sam Yong on media. 

This week is my first week for research. It was really scary initially. We met up with the research mentor last Friday and he was this associate professor from NUS. I got into a chemistry project, offered by NUS, with Cheryl. We emailed on the first few days of last week, before deciding to meet up last Friday. CC-ed Dr Dewey, but he didn't comment on the emails or anything. Well, now we are not facing any trouble, so it is okay that he didn't email back or anything. 

The associate professor is quite cool- from German and his wife works in the same lab as him. They look like some sweet couple. I do wish that my husband and I will be sweet in the future :D During the weekends, he email-ed us regarding some pre-lab videos which we had to watch. But, we didn't. It was the worst mistake this week. I swore that it is the most terrible mistake D: We got scolded because of that. D: He said that he would throw us out if we do not behave ourselves from now on  and that we are under his command. He asks us to do this and he expects it to be done D: I didn't watch the videos because they seemed  minor and school taught us some basic pre-lab skills. 

However, he explained later during that day that it was super dangerous that we were dealing with chemicals that could possibility bring down the entire building, if handled inappropriately. After giving it some thoughts, he was quite true and we were apologetic about that. However, after we received this scolding from him, the students from the lab were nice and sensitive and comforted us. :D Haiz. I do hope that we do not get kicked out. On the first day, we got threatened to be kicked out of the lab. 

However, on Tuesday, we took a day rest, because we needed to watch video. Of course, we did watch them and read up on journals and yesterday, we managed to start on the first experiment and it took us super long to do the experiment. D: In the end, we took a 1.5hrs of lunch and realized that the chemical turned color shorting after we left. D: Sad. D: because we had to wait for the products to undergo reflux for 3 hours, so we had so much free time that we just did menu for breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper for the remaining weeks, just to save money, so that we could buy a lot of things on our wishlets. D;

After finishing the experiment, we are thinking of how to proceed on afterwards. D: Stuck. Hope we do discover something and something from SSEF. :D 

Day 2. Ahhhh. Chris wasn't there during the first half of the day because of the Singapore Shell Fair Competition thing. Our school got first. :D congratulations. So, in the morning, I went to the auditorium and received the question paper on the UK group's behalf to ensure fairness of the competition. Afterwards, they were supposed to turn up at the auditorium and collect the envelop containing the question paper from us. There were a list of instructions and rules which they had to adhere to and this piece of paper which they had to sign to admit that they didn't receive any help from anyone. Unfortunately, the room which we were assigned to didn't have air-con. Well, it was okay for the time being, I guess. After bringing them to the classroom, there was a few problems which they had. For example, they didn't have the font which was required. Luckily, Chris found someone to help me out during the time :D Thankfully, if not, I, being an IT retard, would be as lost as them.

Later, they needed some extra markers. I walked around a bit, trying to help them find extra markers. Then, it was the time when I had cultural shock!!!!!!!!!!! Next to my class was the US class and the two guys in that room took off their shirts, because they felt that it was too hot!!!!!!! I was too embarrassed whenever I walked past their class and I would turn my head away from the classroom. Please wear some shirts. It is not good for girls' eyes. Something to be glad about- B.J. isn't the type that takes off his shirt :D

Soon, it was lunch time. They told me that they would rather take the stairs than the lift. SHOCKED!!!! They are so healthy. Climbing the stairs from fifth floor to the first and back again. For that, I salute them.

Afterwards, at the later half of the day, Chris came and bought bubble tea and some dried Jackfruit on the way back for them to try. I strongly encouraged them to try bubble tea because everybody lovesssss bubble tea, especially KOI. But, to my dismay, Karolina drank it and couldn't stand it, until she had to vomit. D: I am sorry. D: BJ didn't like it, while Megan loves it :D :D :D Later, I quickly slipped away to practise the dance (dynamite) with Aisyah. It was a short session, because we all knew how to dance already :D

And I don't know what I was doing. BUT, I managed to get into the lift alone with this cute Russia guy, with this cute periodic table tie. Hahaha. Score. :D He entered from the second floor. I was shocked at the fact that people entering the lift from the second floor and I was going down at that time. So, I asked him which floor was he going and he said one. I was kind of laughing, because no one does that. But, I forgot that we were from different countries and different backgrounds. Probably, he felt offended by me. Ouchhhhh.Not a good impression. D:

I didn't look at the question paper, because I thought that they needed to concentrate and it wouldn't be nice of me to disturb them. But, I managed to do so on the third day. I was shocked at the questions. I doubt I could solve them within the time limit given. Probably, I will spend my entire life solving the problems. So, I was super curious about their solutions. They are younger than me and I wanted to see what solutions they had come up with. To my shock, they had forgotten the essential details of the questions and did the entire question wrongly. D: I wanted so much to tell them, yet I couldn't do so. I am so so sorry, but I know that I couldn't. Unfortunately, they didn't spot any error. D: So, they were slacking away and telling me stories of guys in the school. They told me stuffs like quite a number of people in their school actually had sex, before the legal age. Also, guys are always seen topless in the summer walking along the streets. The first thought that raced through my mind was that, it is never going to happen in Singapore for sure! Also, being in a relationship is pretty common. I told them something which they found it shocking. I don't have any bikini and they were sooooo shocked. They were questioning me, how can I not have a bikini in such a hot country.

DAY 2 and DAY 3 passed by sooo slowly because they were supposed to work on their report,while DAY 4, they are supposed to present. Meanwhile, I had nothing to do, so I used the time to complete my English journal :D :D :D yeah :D During the presentations, I can clearly see the difference between the Westerners and the Asians. The students are supposed to present to four different judges and the allocations of classrooms and judges were random. It happened that they got 3 Asian judges and 1 Westerner judge. The Asian judges shot them down with questions, while the Westerner guy judge was asking them about their trip here. So different. It is so true. Westerners believe in rewarding and self-pride, while Asians are not very concerned about it. They were concerned about telling you the truth, even though that means you are lousy or you are not good enough. Sometimes, the truth hurts, but you need to hear them.

At night, we are supposed to go to Night Safari and Science center. I am not attached with my group. Instead, I was with Tokoyo Tech. They were so cool. They had namecards. So cute and professional. We should have personalized name cards. I didn't really talk much to them, because we had language barrier. They didn't really understand English and I couldn't speak Japanese at all. At Science center, there are descriptions next to the set-up and thankfully, there is one in Japanese and I would say to them, "Japanese." and point at the descriptions. I felt so retarded, but it was the best I could do. Later, at the Night Safari, we sat in the trams, with guided tour. I was so scared of the animals. D: They were of such close proximity to me that I was so freaked out. I kept on wondering why people are so cool about being so close towards these dangerous animals. I was freaking out like mad, wondering in my heart when the animals would be attacked me. I guess I was paranoid, but I couldn't help it. D:

On Friday, it was the time when they went for A Star talk and amazing race. However, I didn't go. It feels so nice to sleep in until 9am, a luxury indeed :D and I spent the time finishing my English current affair portfolio. Later, I went back home to pass to my dad his present (i.e. it was his birthday), collect my clothes for the dinner and went back to hostel again to fetch them to school. Later, it was the prize presentation and Aisyah and I were fangirling over some people. hehehehe. :D :D :D who I fangirl-ed over is so obvious :D hahaaha. After the ceremony, I went to look for the UK people to bring them to the hall D: but, I didn't manage to find them. Thankfully, they could find their way there. Afterwards, Aisyah and I got changed and hahahah. During the dinner, I didn't eat much, because I didn't really fancy the food. However, aisyah's team is quite cute. They came in their school uniform, because this is the best smart casual that they can find. Creative and cute. hahaha. My group people wore something nice. :D they all looked smart :D there were DICE, after-school dance by Mei Fang, sing along by Thao and Jonathan Seet (what makes you beautiful and we are young) and Minus Squared performance. Since it was the last night, I decided to pluck my courage and asked the cute Russian guy to take a picture with me and he agreed :D i bet he thought I was this mentally unsound girl. I doubt our paths are going to cross in the future (But I will be glad that our paths cross :D), so why not take a picture for memorial sake?  Aisyah also did the same. :D

Afterwards, there came the dancing. But, I couldn't dance at all. D: HOW? I can't dance at all! D: Disappointing. I should learn how to dance before that. Everyone could dance and I was awkwardly standing still D: It was embarrassing and awkward and everything, a mixture of feelings. The people around me thought that I was some anti-social kid, but I wasn't. It was just that I couldn't dance at alll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haizzzzz. But, I was glad all the dancing was over. Yet, I felt a sudden rush of sadness. This was the last time that we were going to gather here again. Everyone will be leading their own lives as usual and out of a sudden, this separation hurt. D: I wanted to hold onto the last moment so so badly. It was the same as Cinderella. After 12 midnight, everyone would be dispersed and would go their separate ways. The magical moment would be gone forever. D: to my dear fairy God (I don't have a fairy godmother, but I do have God), I hope that everyone will remember this magical moment and may I have more of such magical moments :D thank you. In Jesus' name, Amen. (This is hangover, I guess)

THE END :D Finally, after so much determination, I finally finished blogging about SIMC. :D

SIMC POST!!! :D

SIMC has been a wonderful and great experience for both the participants and the student helpers, especially for me :D :D :D :D :D

On DAY 1- it is the opening ceremony. I agreed to fetch them from Utown to school, because Chris lived quite far away. After fetching them back to school, it was quite awkward because all of us are quite shy and I was talking with Mr Game, their teacher throughout the entire journey from Utown to school. Afterwards, he was supposed to go to library to have their high-class educators breakfast. The food looked very delicious. :D But, the food which they catered to the participants are not bad also. On the first day, I realized that they didn't eat a lot. I guess probably because they didn't really like the food, so they didn't eat a lot. Later, people from Chicago approached us and self-introduced themselves to us. It was polite of them to do so. It was so hilarious. The three of them are Asians, while the last one is a true Westerner. So before he came to Singapore, the rest of the team members gave him an introductory course on how to use chopsticks. Hahaha. Hilarious. Afterwards, we decided to go around the school to self-introduce ourselves. We introduced ourselves to the Australians (Jiamin and Jonathan Seet's team, Shenton College). Then, we went around introducing ourselves to the other Westerners. Hahaha. I couldn't remember all the teams which we went to. Later, we went to the amphitheatre to take pictures. Afterwards, we went for briefing about the overview of the programmes by Mr Goh and Mrs Chong. Afterwards, there is some time before the opening ceremony, so we decided to play some games. Wait, we only played one game- Whacko with the Germans and the French people. When my name was called, I was so scared that I just shouted Chris Chris Chris.  I looked retarded. There is a forfeit. The French people sabotaged someone from their team, so he ended up having to go to another group of people, sleep on the floor and do the seastar movement. It was super embarrassing. Hahaha. Poor guy. Afterwards, they had lunch in the canteen, before going to Art Science museum, which was super super boring. Everyone in my group was lagging behind, because they were not interested in Andy Warhol. To be honest, me too! I learnt that the design of the architecture of the Art Science museum is supposed to resemble a palm, but it looked more like a lotus. And their lift is super big with glass wall. It makes me feel as though it is the glass elevator in the Charlie and the Chocolate factory. Hahaha. And the lift was travelling at a high speed, which made us feel as though we were in the plane. Afterwards, when we came back, they were all tired and Megan wanted to play a  game- human untanglement. We are supposed to grab a person's hand who is opposite ours and try to untangle ourselves. Their record is that they did it with 90+ people. But we couldn't break the record. Next time, we will. I was too short and couldn't grab somebody's hand, so I couldn't play. T.T Afterwards, we had dinner in canteen, before sending them back again to Utown.

I should blog about Day 2 some other day.

hmmmm. one more day :D :D :D

I am so lazy to update about SIMC. I will do it once I am free, once I clear all my homework- ENGLISH CURRENT AFFAIRS D: I am left with one more. Jiayous :D :D :D and i can play later. So, now I am posting songs that I am addicted to. For these few days, I am not feeling very well. Aisyah too. I felt like vomitting out everything that I ate. I dont usually vomit, but this feels quite bad. D: I dont know if I am unwell due to the lack of sleep or due to the interaction with a Japanese guy, who was sick yesterday. Yesterday, I took the Japanese team for the night safari and science center trip. A guy was sick. He had fever and headache. I hope he and I can get well soon. Bye bye. I am going to do my current affairs.

Superman- Taylor Swift

Finally :D the day I had been awaiting for had come!

Day 0- Sunday, 20 May 2012
I intended to meet Chris at 3.00pm to pick them, however, due to some delay in the preparation, I left house 20 minutes later than planned. Yet, I reached there on time :D Thank god. It was partly because the bus came straight after I reached the interchange. Later, Chris texted me saying that she was going to be late as her lift broke down and she had to make her way down to the 1st floor from 19th floor. Tiring job and she had to flag a cab there.

After reaching the Changi Terminal 3, I sat with Jiahong for a while, while she complained that the Beijing No 4 High School people were not out yet, even though they were 30 minutes later than the scheduled timing of the plane's touch down.

Afterwards, I was informed that the UK plane touched down 5 minutes past 3, even though their plane was supposed to touch down at 3.15pm. Later, I met Ms Chua and she gave me this striking red board to hold onto it. It was not that embarrassing because there was no glitters on it. But, I felt like I stood out from the rest, because none of them were using the corrugated plastic board. We guessed that they were delayed and I met another Clara. She was two years younger than me and was doing journalism, planning to interview the UK teachers and students. Dion Ang was there too! Surprising. He was supposed to help me take photos. Hope he took a great one and upload them soon :D

After 45 minutes of waiting, we finally got to meet them. Before that, we were spectaculating which one of the group do they belong to. hahaha. All of them turned out to be another bizzard guess. My first impression of them is that they seem quite different and fears that I couldn't communicate with them well began to creep into my heart. D: It was my first time receiving guests from the airport and I was totally clueless about what was going on and what to expect.

At times like these, I am glad that Chris is my partner. She is very experienced in this area. She began to self-introduce herself to the guests and I did the same. The principal is a very interesting guy. He is very vibrant and began to introduce himself to other principles on his way to the hotel from the airport. Firstly, he greeted the Beijing No 4 High School people with "ni hao" (hello in chinese) and later, he proceeded to greet the Japanese.

The two ladies were Megan and Karolina. Megan is the more outspoken one, whiel Karolina was the quiet one. The three gentlemen were Benjamin (aka BJ), Mr Game and the principal. Karolina was from Poland and they took 29 hours to travel to Singapore. It was pretty long for them. Later, we got onto the bus and sat in front and took some pictures of them. We got onto the same bus as Beijing No 4 High School, some Japan school, Hong Kong Queen Elizabeth School and the Netherlands School. I sat with Chris, but I was talking to Mr Game and BJ, because they were nearer to me than the girls. Their culture is so different from us. They start school at 8.30am, a luxury only available in UK and school ends on 3.00pm for them. Later, I shared about school life and hostel.

Soon, we reached Utown, where they would be staying. The teachers' rooms do have air-conditioner, while the students don't. They only have fans. Their hostel feels like hotel, much better than our school one. Their lift uses cards to operate. You need to tap your card on this black area, so you can press which floor you are going to. Their room key is the card and you need to tap once to open it and tap another time to lock it. Weiqi, Samantha, Felecia and Verena, have fun staying in Utown.

Later, they received their goodie bag, which the Netherlands guys were very amazed about. Hahaha. We brought them up to hostel and let them settle down first before showing them around Utown and bringing them to nearby hawker center to eat dinner. So they tried wanton mee. :D They seem to use chopsticks better than me, despite this being their first time. You must not cross your chopsticks, but I always do so, if not, I can't use it at all. Mr Game successfully used chopstick the correct way. Cool. I was so amazed at it. The three students were having quite successful. :D Perhaps chopstick was in the European blood. And I learnt that they had 1 penny, 2 pennies, 5 pennies, 10 pennies, 20 pennies, 50 pennies and 1 pound coin. So cool.

Afterwards, we dropped by to Cold Storage before going back because they wanted to purchase some fruit juice. This brand called watercrost (hopefully, I spelt it correctly) costed 6 Sing dollars, but only cost around 1+ to 2 Euro pounds. Based on the conversion, it costs around 3-4 Sing dollars if they bought it in UK instead of Singapore. Exploitation! D:

Megan's feet were swollen from not moving in the plane. D: I must be careful and walk a bit during my trip to Xi'An. On the way back, they asked me if I felt safe walking alone at night. I replied, "Ya, I feel very safe." It was then, I realized that security is something which I always take for granted in Singapore. There are some areas in town which they do not feel safe walking alone at night. Even BJ doesn't feel safe to do so. I am truly thankful for this security and peace in Singapore. Thank you Singapore government.

In addition, it is common to have a pet. BJ has a dog. Megan is going to have one soon when she gets back. A puppy. Karolina got one. It was her brother's. She told me, it was whenever she took the dog for a walk, it was the dog pulling her not the other way round. hahahaa.

Yup, sent them back and then, Chris ordered someone from the ops room to deliver ice to Megan's room. And Mr Wang is so funny. He was saying that he didn't know the way because he was calling back to China on his way here. hahahaha. Mr Wang is so cool.

Yup, that's all for Day 1. I hope I do have the energy to continue on :D tiring, but fun.

Drive BY :D :D :D :D felecia recommended this song for me. I got back my progress report for this semester today. I dropped D: biology!!!!! B!!!!! for both modules. Stupid. And physiics hons module and med chemistry B+. Should I drop biology???? Helppppp!!!! Sometimes, I do wish there is no exams or any form of graded assessment. I like studying, learning about everything under the sun and interacting with friends in school. BUT, it feels as if singapore's rigid education system made everything impossible. It adds stress to me, as I felt compelled to do well and it wasn't really about studying for the sake of studying, but more of studying beccause I have to in this competitive based world. D: or perhaps it is me who is giving myself the stress D: I guess stress results from both. ******************************************************************************** Yesterday was the last hostel christian fellowship, which was super fun. On a piece of paper, there was a number written on it and based on the number, you had to answer the corresponding question on the piece of paper and people had to guess who it was. One of my questions I received was: what is one of my greatest weakness? I said I was always late. After thinking through things, I realized that I had a much more terrible weakness. I am a bad judge in something. Sometimes, while talking about certain issues about somebody, I will start to talk about their weaknesses and deem that person as not nice or bad because of the weaknesses that I saw in that person. Later, somehow, I saw their strengths and I regreted what I said about the person because afterall, that person turns out nice, just that everyone has weaknesses D: Oh no. I should change that. D: I think it is very terrible D: Afterall, I had my weaknesses too. D: D: D: D: D: D: D: everyone had sinned and fell short of glory. How can I forget this? Dear God, Please give me the strength to change this weakness. Please help me to learn to accept people as who they are and not to make any comparison of any sort. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Post-exam activities were fun and boring at the same time. It was fun because there were a series of fun events, which I will blog more about later and at the same time, boring because I am not used to this slow pace of life- waking up, lazying around the bed, prepare to school, using computer, talking nonsense to people.

On Monday, my exams ended officially :D :D :D AP Physics B. :D :D :D I mugged hard for it. On the night before the exam, I mugged until 1am, slept until 3am and studied until 5am, before sleeping until 8am. Mug, sleep, mug and sleep. The cycle continues. I was so relieved after the exam.

On Tuesday, we had inter-cluster bridge competition and I was kicked out on the first one together with Cheryl, while Russell and Felecia got in. Later, we started playing the loser bridge, whereby all the people who got kicked out at the first round. It was fun, nevertheless.

Today, we went for OCS trip. It was quite fun, trying to shoot for the first time. I shot the first two or three shots nicely. Then, the gunpowder smell was too overwhelming, my nose was itchy because of it and I felt suffocated. To make things worse, the gunpowder made my eyes teary D: But, their facilities were super cool :D :D :D Swimming pool. :D :D :D I want a swimming pool in our school and I will join the swimming pool club. It will be so fun to have one indoor one. :D

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Best quote ever: "I don't hate or dislike anyone; it is just that some people made me hard to love them."- me

Yay!!!! Thank God :D I was right when I said that tomorrow will be a better day! :D Today was freaking awesome! I got two great news.

I got into the ARP that I applied with Cheryl :D :D :D Yay!

NEXT NEXT NEXT, I am hosting UK students for SIMC. :D :D :D :D I am looking forward to their visit :D

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

overjoy :D

amazing. i likes to play cards. hahaha, they do have a meaning behind, sweet. :D


Story
"The Cards" is set during World War II, where a group of Army soldiers, on a long hike during a campaign in southern Italy, had arrived and camped near a town named Cassino. While Scripture is being read, one boy who has only a deck of playing cards, pulls them out and spreads them in front of him. He is immediately spotted by a sergeant, who orders the soldier to put them away (thinking he's playing cards in church). The soldier is then arrested and taken before the Provost Marshal to be punished.

The Provost Marshal demands an explanation, to which the soldier explains the significance of each card

Ace: The one true God
Deuce: The Old Testament and New Testament in the Bible
Trey/Three: The Holy Trinity; the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit/Ghost
Four: St. Matthew, St. Mark, St. Luke, and St. John, evangelists and authors of the four Gospels
Five: The two groups of five virgins who trimmed their lamps for a wedding. Five were wise (by saving enough oil) and were admitted, while the other five were foolish (did not have enough oil) and were shut out.
Six: God creates the Earth in six days.
Seven: God rests on the seventh day, now known as the Sabbath.
Eight: The eight righteous people whom God saved during the Great Flood: Noah, his wife, their three sons, and their wives.
Nine: Of the ten lepers whom Jesus cleansed, nine of them didn't even thank him.
Ten: The Ten Commandments God handed down to Moses.
King: Jesus Christ, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, or alternatively, God the Father.
Queen: Blessed Virgin Mary, the Mother of Jesus and Queen of Heaven.
Jack or Knaves: Satan or the Devil
365 Spots: Days in a year

**NOTE - basic deck actually contains 364, + 1 for a Joker, (even though most decks of cards will contain 2 jokers)
52 Cards: Number of weeks in a year
Thirteen Tricks: Number of weeks in a quarter
Four Suits: Approximate number of weeks in a month (can also mean the four seasons but this is not included in the song)
Twelve Face Cards: Number of months in a year

He then ends his story by saying that "my deck of cards serves me as a Bible, an almanac and a prayer book." The narrator then closes the story by stating that "this story is true," either by claiming either he is the soldier in question or that he knows him.

Goh Mei Zhen
Northland Primary School
NUS High School
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Fibonacci
29 May 1995
goh-meizhen@hotmail.com

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